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r0ckst4r @ 2003-09-27T23:48:00

2003-09-28T06:47:46Z

got a new livejournal.. going to delete this in few days.

bent_life

add me if you want.. ill get around to adding you back.

shake it like a polaroid!

2003-09-26T18:31:22Z

i saw atmosphere again at ameoba on wednesday. it was beyond packed.. i had nowhere to stand except on the side isles where the view sucked. but, in the middle of the set, they cut the yellow warning tape, which allowed my friends and i to get closer then any of the fucks that probably waited in line to get in front. slug was right over my head, and man, why is he so good?! it was a short set, but he ended with god's bathroom floor =D

i saw atmosphere twice this week. and tonight, im going to santa barbara to get my party on
and tomorrow, i get to see aes rizzle, el producto and eyedea(!!)

oh yeah, i need to see scarface in the theaters before tomorrow. you cochroaches

To everyone out there, who's a little different I say damn a magazine, these are gods fingerprints

2003-09-23T19:59:37Z

saw atmosphere last night

oddjobs; i missed them because of the ridiculous line. fuck the slow securities
brother ali; brother ali is insanely dope live. he had the whole place bouncing throughout the entire set singing along with his lyrics.. he's got serious beatboxing skills too.
micranots; i think i was the only person in there that even knew who i self divine is.. man, the crowd was so dead.. it was the first time i've seen him, and i thought he rocked it.
then psc came out, did couple songs and tossed out bunch of cds..
atmosphere; amazing as usual.. the whole place was moving the whole time, it was live as all hell. highlights for me was the mr dibb's mosh pit, god's bathroom floor and abusing of the ribs(!!!!!)

i really enjoyed myself last night, even though i got elbowed in a jaw in the pit.

it's incredibly hot here.

im not the type to wear it just because the shoe fits..

2003-09-18T02:16:34Z

summer's just about officially over. at least i get to wear my jackets and sweaters now

man, the non-prophets album is oh-so-good. sage francis for president. really, this album is fantastic
speaking of music, i've been listening to lots of explosions in the sky and shellac. none of my friends like any of the music i listen to. whatever, their loss

anyways, i've been keeping my self sane by keeping my days filled.
oh im crushing on a girl so bad. make fun of me if you want, but i really cant take rejection. why am i such a bitch? i need to make my move soon.. im just torturing myself thinking about this shit, and i just need to tell her whats up.. maybe im a masochist

concert wise, im going to see atmosphere on monday, and aes rizzle on friday. =D hoping to see some lj faces up in these shows

i want new books, few records, vestax pmc-07, hieroglyphics ticket, digi cam, glass chess set, clothes, dvds.. but i need MONEY.. too bad i have just enough money to buy food, gas, cigarrettes and alcohol/buds.

i miss alot of you kids.. let me know how you're doing

can you find me sanctuary...

2003-09-10T01:59:03Z

my heart goes out to the kids who got shot at taft high today;

this hits way too close to home, considering i was at the in-n-out down the street couple hours before it happened.

r0ckst4r @ 2003-09-06T01:55:00

2003-09-06T08:40:19Z

the new lj layout is bullshit.

san francisco was nice, just too cold for my liking. sucks for john, living next to a drug dealer must be living hell. yeah

i need money. can somebody buy me some atmsophere tickets?

r0ckst4r @ 2003-08-27T13:19:00

2003-08-27T20:04:52Z

im going to frisco for few days.. ill probably be back around sunday.

justin knocked some kid out on monday.. quite a knockout punch it was.
=D

r0ckst4r @ 2003-08-20T01:18:00

2003-08-20T08:04:30Z

couldnt resist downloading the new jedi mind tricks and atmosphere albums.
im buying them, so who cares, right? right.

in other news, 2 40 oz of old e gets jeff pretty drunk

metal face doom is jesus of 2003

2003-08-19T00:15:01Z

Yo, yo, yo, y'all can't stand right here
In his right hand was your man's worst nightmare
Loud enough to burst his right eardrum close-range
The game is not only dangerous, but it's most strange
I sell rhymes like dimes
The one who mostly keep cash but brag about the broker times
Joker rhymes, like the "Is you just happy to see me?" trick
Classical slap-stick rappers need Chapstick
A lot of 'em sound like they in a talent show
So I give 'em something to remember, like the Alamo
Tally-ho! A high Joker like Spades game
Came back from five year layin' and stayed the same
Sayin' - electromagnetic feeling blocks all logic, Spock
And G- shocks her biological clock
When I hit it, slit her to the shitter, thought I killed her goose
Her Power-Use was pure Brita water, filtered juice
Keep a pen like a fiend keep a pipe wit' 'im
Gentleman who lent a pen to a friend who write wit' 'im
Never seen the shit again, but he's still my dunny
Only thing that come between us is krill and money

You’re written in her book.. you’re number 37, have a look

2003-08-18T09:22:15Z

i had the hangover of the year today.
lets see; eighth of northern lights, two percocets, peach(!!!) hooka bowls, jungle juice, shots of gin, shots of whisky, hennesey and coke, keg beer, beck's and corona left me a half dead man in the morning.. jenna told me i was acting sloppily drunk last night. i think i told chris that i hooked up with his ex girlfriend. hm, too bad i dont remember much.. all i know is no more alchi for me for awhile

amazingly, i felt better as the day went on.. went out to dinner at bennihannas with everyone for david. the bill was outrageous. came back and stargazed with leanna, david, christina and jenna at my house. the conversations we had tonight was extremely thought provoking and i immensely enjoyed them.. we watched dancer in the dark and smoked mas peach(!!!) hookah bowls.

im tired, but i dont think im going to be sleeping tonight comfortably.. even in the midst of the good company i keep, im miserably lonely.

aids infested child molesters arent sick as me..

2003-08-15T11:23:31Z

i am soo drunk.. jenna's passed out on my couch.. heh
why am i up til 5 in the morning everyday? not healthy jeff

anyways, bjork was beyond wonderful. we were sitting in area q?! im pretty sure that was it.. i got way tipsy before we got there, and im sure everyone else knew. i brought vodka in a flask and smoked tons of joints. bjork performed with such grace and beauty.. it was a amazing experience.. probably one of the best shows i have ever been to.. i just wished i was a bit closer

what are you people representing with these bumper stickers

2003-08-08T18:03:57Z

sorry i havent updated in so long.. my computer crashed, and my cable modem wasn't working. but everything's back to normal, so i can post once a week on this shit.

i cant believe it's almost the middle of august already. time sure flies

But nah go back to your reality show
You in the front row, just sit and let the casualties grow
And even though I pay these veterans respect
I won't pick a gun up and shoot and kill someone I've never even met
It's alright to the point there ain't shit left
Except a blizzard of ashes and radiated insects
You see these parents want these kids to enlist
Til their kids are the ones who get murdered by this bullshit

you know what, im really happy these days even i really miss some people. maybe distance does make the heart grow fonder.

r0ckst4r @ 2003-07-25T04:53:00

2003-07-25T11:39:08Z

got in a car accident.. everyone was ok, except probably some whiplashes.. it was some real tv shit.. i really dont feel like writing about it.

i know you're out there..

2003-07-22T04:51:50Z

See me waving my handkerchief on the shore
See my arm raised high
See that ship sail off with its sails aloft
See me dry my eyes and
See more salty tears flow as my house is blown wide

im really tired and aloof lately. everyone's telling me that my head is somewhere else. i've been cutting down on cigarrettes, even though my life has been stressful. i really miss forms of physical contact, i think it's been days since i got a real good hug. time for xanax

r0ckst4r @ 2003-07-20T05:36:00

2003-07-20T12:21:27Z

i didnt kill myself today

go me

r0ckst4r @ 2003-07-19T19:06:00

2003-07-20T01:51:49Z

im surprised that i didnt kill myself today.

whatever comes up comes out we dont our hands over our mouth

2003-07-17T19:16:57Z

i dont even know where to start. it's been awhile..

summer's been great.. i've been sleeping in and writing alot. went to the beach quite a few times too... surfing is getting really fun. only gripe is that i wish i had a special someone to share my days with. btw, im taking volunteers to go out on dates with me.. i've been out on few dates this summer, none being too successful. im craving something tangible.

anyways, warped tour sucked. really really bad. there were maybe five bands i wanted to see, and two of them were horrible. i cant stand the "scene" kids.. counterfit and talib kweli was pretty good though. spending time with christy and jenna<3 was also a plus.

on a better concert note, i saw brother ali twice this weekend. he's gonna blow up.
rilo kiley was beautiful. mmm jenny lewis.
i really want to go see radiohead, but the tickets are 50 bucks or something. ugh. if i go to radiohead, that means no ben harper =(

I'm albino man, I know I'm pink and pale and I'm hairy as hell, everywhere but fingernails

2003-07-07T02:58:30Z

my friends are fucking undecisive idiots.. i think im the only person i know that actually have empathy for others. i mean, i put myself in other people's shoes all the time, and i actually attempt to feel others' pain and problems. i always try to help people out, and im the one always making plans for everyone.. but when i need help or a simple advice, there's noone to talk to.. noone to reach out to.. maybe im the idiot, and i should take care of myself first. but no matter what my friends are fucking idiots.. i need to make better friends. ugh. eh, whatever, i shouldnt be negative. daniel, if you do read this, my bad homie i apologize.. we'll go to venice next weekend when we plan it better.

anyways, the fourth was ok, i saw way too many cops. thank god i didnt need to deal with any of them. i got all drunk and set off mad fireworks.. i also saw the olson twins, and one of their boyfriend almost got jumped by my friends for talking shit. ridiculous.

i want to go to amoeba..

r0ckst4r @ 2003-07-02T14:42:00

2003-07-02T21:28:11Z

In need of someone to have you and hold you. In need of someone to need you and mold you. I could always be on time. maybe we could get married I could find a slow job. Maybe we could get married. Scary thought in the middle of the night. Behind the ash tray there's a list of all the things, groceries, jewelry, hairspray I can see in the supermarket I could really do alright with you. You could teach me to get to sleep. I haven't slept in days I haven't slept in years. Like I never sleep cuz I'm still afraid what I think gets continued in sleep.

he wonders how he ever stayed..

2003-06-30T17:57:02Z

this summer's been slow.. every time i've gone to the beach, it's been cold. everything is so mundane.. everyday's just been a replica of the day before. ugh. i wish i had a girl to share this summer with.. it wouldnt be half as boring.

went to amoeba with jenna couple days ago; i bought,
dj shadow & cut chemist- freeze,
love lost but not forgotten- upon a night i saw a new misery
beck- sea changes
twin peaks season 1 & season 2 dvd
and i was planning on buying the radiohead tour poster, but i was couple bucks short.

and hopefully, i get to go to scribble jam this year. maybe we'll take the grayhound.

r0ckst4r @ 2003-06-28T03:46:00

2003-06-28T10:32:55Z

im so drunk..

i drank every single kind of liquer tonight. oh my god im spinning.. jungle juice is fucking great

r0ckst4r @ 2003-06-23T22:02:00

2003-06-24T04:48:38Z

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free
Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the light of a dark black night
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

listen with heart and soul then soul can pump beat literally

2003-06-23T19:35:58Z

saturday was great; went to the basement and saw qwel, robust and offwhyte.. hung out with qwel afterwards, bought their tour cd, and he promised that he'll get us into their show on thursday for free. and since it's at venice, we even have a place to party afterwards.
im gonna plug his shit.. if you can find the song 'vincent van gogh coke ad' by qwel, download it. the imagery he paints is just beautiful..

im supposed to hang out with a certain girl tonight.. hopefully it'll be all good. besides this june gloom that won go away, im smiling..

r0ckst4r @ 2003-06-23T12:04:00

2003-06-23T18:51:05Z

r0ckst4r
Magic Number	18
Job	Leader of the Free World
Personality	Drifter
Temperament	If I Lose It - Run
Sexual	Straight
Likely To Win	The Wrath Of My Peers
Me - In A Word	Startling
Colour
Brought to you by MemeJack

she giggles because i sleep with a body pillow..

2003-06-20T09:29:31Z

im so drunk drunk;

had fun tonight at shawn's party.. danced, drank, jumped in the jacuzzi and watched clockwork orange smoking bud. had a good time..
i think i might be going up to frisco tomorrow, but if not, im going to see typical cats at the basement =D

ps, jen's the best <33